Air of December.

Air of December.

My posting in December has just been shameful. I started writing a few things, but they didn’t get done. No time. There just isn’t any time.

I’m not a fan of December. I used to love Christmas and the whole holiday season. Having a job that’s demanding this time of year certainly puts a damper on the spirit, but maybe this would have happened anyway. I don’t really have the time to analyze these things. Every year I say I’ll do more to get into it – bake or be more generous or something – but then the next thing I know December is almost over and I’m feeling like Thanksgiving was just yesterday.

As someone who likes tradition and dislikes change, part of the issue could be that as the years pass, things change. There are some traditions that hold, but some get let go of, even if only for this year. Change is probably my least favorite part of life, but it is just the way things go and I need to roll with it.

This year for Christmas, all I really want is downtime. Some relaxation, some time with no stress. I’d like to get some stuff done that needs doing so I can cross things off my to do list. I haven’t the need or desire for material things. What I need and want is peace, a little extra energy and more hours in the day. I realize that’s a pretty tall order.

It’s been an interesting year, pushing my patience to the limit for much of it. Perhaps that’s the lesson to be learned: to slow down, to try to enjoy the chaos, to search for all the silver linings.

That’s it. That’s my check in. For now, at least for the day, I’m going to close the laptop and try to find some holiday cheer, spending time with people I love. I hope you get to do the same.

 

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16 Responses to “Air of December.”

  1. Stacie says:

    I get this. The hardest thing for me this time of year is that it’s hard to do the normal stuff bc of all the darn people out. And then there’s everything else on top of that!

    • michellelongo says:

      It’s not as though the day to day obligations ease up. In fact, with my son home from school as much as he’s been between late November and now, it’s actually worse. I would really love to be more on top of things next year. Or maybe let more things go. Can’t decide.

  2. EagleAye says:

    I know how you feel. Sometimes the value of material things pales in comparison to just a little ordinary peace of mind. I hope you find peace and serenity this year.

    • michellelongo says:

      Thanks – I think I’m more peaceful that I was last year in some ways, so I suppose I’m headed in the right direction. Slowly, day by day…

  3. I feel this way too. I started with all these great plans and now it’s almost Christmas and all my plans went no where.

  4. mamarific says:

    I feel this way, too. I wish I could just enjoy December, and find some extra hours in each day. Tomorrow is the 23rd, and I’ve yet to wrap a gift…but it’s all going to be OK, right??

    • michellelongo says:

      Yup, it’s all going to be OK. Some stuff won’t get done, you’ll do stuff you didn’t need to but it was fun so who cares, the kids will be happy (and then still manage to whine because they are kids). But it’ll be OK if we decide that it’s OK. I’m deciding it is OK.

  5. Obed Medina says:

    Nice post. Reminded me of a song from Edie Brickell & the New Bohemians. Don’t think the sentiments are the same, but it’s a lovely song just the same.

    • michellelongo says:

      OK, if I were the type to give out prizes for people guessing obscure things that I didn’t even ask anyone to, you would surely win because I have had that song stuck in my head for days now and, though I agree it’s not the same sentiment, I definitely had it on my mind when I was selecting a title for this post! I love, love, love that Edie Brickell record. One of my all time favorites.

      Thanks for stopping by and commenting!

  6. As someone else with a busy year-end business, I totally get this.

    • michellelongo says:

      Ugh. I mean, no one loves their busy season, but it would be so much easier if ours didn’t coincide with what is customarily a celebratory time for most of the rest of the people we know.

  7. I hope you get some downtime. You deserve it. Have a Merry Christmas, Michelle.

  8. So many things add to the stress and rush, no matter how removed we are from the actual HOLIDAY stuff. The darkness is something that affects me greatly — and this year we didn’t put up our lights. I may have to put them up after Christmas. For me they are all about taking the edge off the encroaching dark tidal wave of this time of year.

    And if I do put them up, I’m leaving them on all night ’cause I know you love that.

    • michellelongo says:

      That’s it, you just run that unnecessary electricity all night long, wasting the earth’s precious resources 😉 We have our lights up, but I don’t turn them on. And I agree that even when it’s not holiday madness, this is such a season of SO MUCH.

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