I sit

to contemplate

my future. What will be

will be was never my preferred

mantra.

 

I want

to make choices

grown from my heart, my soul.

No more rash decisions rooted

in fear.

 

And yet

the angst looms still.

No faith in fate springs from

the past and I lack courage to

push on.

 

I need

a crystal ball

to tell me all will work

out as I yearn for sanguine prom-

ises.

 

I must

rally or risk

stagnation. Forge ahead.

Pretend I know the pathway but

can I?

I’m joining the March Poetry Slam at yeah write with this crown cinquain.

 

I made the cranberry sauce this morning before work. I also peeled the sweet potatoes.

At lunchtime, I peeled the white potatoes.

Right after a full day of work, I finished making the sweet potatoes. All they need are some marshmallows tomorrow. My husband and I jointly made a pumpkin pie which is cooling on the table.

I have been cleaning as I go. Things are mostly in order. I delegated some food items this year because I simply cannot deal.

I put my still-not-100%-feeling-better kid to bed and started the other potatoes. All I need is for them to finish cooking so I can mash and whip them and then I can sit down for the night.

There is a ton more to do tomorrow before company gets here and that’s fine. I’ll get to it. Or at least most of it and if I don’t, then I don’t care because I simply cannot deal with that either.

But these potatoes… they aren’t cooking fast enough. As I type, they are still boiling. Hang on, let me go check them…

…They were done. And just as I was about to mash them, our pizza arrived. You didn’t think I was going to cook a meal for tonight, too, did you?

So I mashed and I ate. Now I’m sleepy. Tomorrow is a new day, with lots of cooking and cleaning and being thankful and all that crap. I mean good stuff. Yes, good stuff, that’s what I meant.

Happy Thanksgiving Eve, people.

This is NaBloPoMo Day 27. You can read more here.

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If I’m being honest…

I don’t feel like blogging tonight. ~ I have seen the entire series of 30 Rock probably over 100 times and I’m perfectly happy to be watching it again tonight. ~ I just ate an ice cream sandwich and there is a very real possibility I’m going to get up and get myself another when I’m done writing this. ~ Even though one of my very smart friends told me that the pain in my jaw is probably from stress, I’ve still been slightly worried all day that I have tetanus. ~ I lost my patience with my son tonight because I am not a very patient person and his grumpiness over being sick was just more than I could take today. ~ My lunch consisted of mozzarella sticks, root beer, potato chips, french onion dip and half a candy bar. ~ I spend way too much time daydreaming about selling all of my material belongings and moving to a tiny cabin in California. ~ I don’t really believe that women can have it all and I don’t think work/life balance exists. ~ I have been trying to read the same book for two months and by trying to read I mean it’s sitting on my night stand not getting read. ~ I don’t think I’m going to make it to 9 p.m. tonight. ~ I’m going to go eat that second ice cream sandwich now.

This is NaBloPoMo Day 26. You can read more here.