Did You Miss Me?

Well.  I hadn’t intended to be away from here for so long.  It’s not that I didn’t have anything to say.  Let’s face it, I always have something to say, this blog juts makes it look like I think things through before I say them.  Hang around with me for a few hours in person and you’ll see that is absolutely not the case.

There’s just been so much going on here lately that I haven’t had time to form whole sentences and paragraphs.  I was thinking about grabbing my notes and just listing all of my random thoughts for you but that’s probably boring and also the notes are all the way on the second floor and I’m on the first floor and I’m only on my first cup of coffee, so walking up a whole flight of stairs isn’t happening.

As I mentioned previously, I started a new job recently.  Let me tell you something about starting a new job.  It’s not fun (no offense, new job).  I was at my last job for 5 years and 8 months and my job before that was a 12 year gig.  I’m used to knowing what I’m doing and pretty much doing my own thing.  I’m in no way implying they are hard on me or anything is wrong, but I’m out of my comfort zone.  I’m sure it will get better and get easier and I’m not unhappy at all, I just miss not caring a little bit.  I hope that makes sense.  I made the right choice to change jobs, my new job is great and will be better long term, and I’m in it for the long haul.  I’m just not a fan of transitions.

The other thing is that I went from working 32 hours to 40.  Eight hours doesn’t sound like a lot, but I realized that’s when I did most of my writing, reading, and housework.  I’m still adjusting my schedule to accommodate all of my necessary tasks along with the things I want to do.  The adjustment isn’t going as well as I would have liked.

Nathan is transitioning, too.  On Wednesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays, I used to pick him up from school and we’d hang out for the rest of the day. Now I pick him up, hand him off to the sitter and go back upstairs to work.  The sitter is new to our family and we aren’t used to having someone in the house who doesn’t live here.  Add the fact that Nathan is just like me in how he deals with changes (as in, we rally against them until, exhausted, we give in and accept them), and it’s been another tough thing.

It’s hard to get comfortable when I know in July it’s all going to change again for the summer when Nathan’s in camp all day, and then again in September when he’s in first grade and our after school arrangements change once again.  But I’m getting ahead of myself as I’m prone to do.

So that’s the story of what happened to my time.  I have a whole different post about my mindset these last few weeks.  But there’s laundry to do, a T-ball game, a fish tank to clean, groceries to buy, bills to pay, an office to organize (yes, if you’ve been following along, that project still isn’t done!), a house to clean, and that just covers the immediate needs.

I was hoping my time away from writing would help me get stuff done which would in turn make me feel less anxious, but it seems like my plan backfired.  It seems the more I get done the more there is to do. Expect to see less 11 day breaks.  I can’t guarantee that’s a good thing, though, so no promises, OK?

I missed my friends at Yeah Write this past week.  Sniffle.

27 Responses to “Did You Miss Me?”

  1. Busy, busy lady! Hope you get some “you time” soon!

  2. Daniel Nest says:

    Well, at least you’re working towards something good long-term. Change is never easy, especially when there…so much of it.

    Hope you find some peace of mind soon!

  3. Zoe says:

    Do forget the down time! Peace!

  4. Zoe says:

    Ha freudian slip? DONT forget the down time!

  5. Christie says:

    I feel you. I loathe being new at a job. It’s so stressful.

    • And I’m home most of the time, so it’s not like I’m walking around feeling awkward, but I think that makes it harder to seem like a real part of the team to some extent. Or, it’s possible I overthink everything :)

  6. Linda Roy says:

    Missed you this week Michelle. I took a break this week and last week too, but I still pop in to read. Sometimes you just gotta play catch up. Life intervenes. Glad to see you on the moonshine grid. Good luck with your new job! I hope you get settled into a new comfort zone quickly.

    • I noticed you weren’t there. I guess we all need that sometimes. I tried to read and then got caught up in stuff again. Hoping to be on this week, I think I can, I think I can… being on the moonshine grid gave me a little boost :)

  7. Jack says:

    New jobs are exciting but it is hard to go from being a “proven entity” to being the new person.

    I am three months into my new gig and just starting to feel like I have a real handle on things.

    • It’s only been 3 weeks for me, and mostly at home, so I know I shouldn’t expect to feel comfortable yet. But yes, proven entity, that’s exactly what I no longer feel like. Glad to hear you’re starting to feel on track at your new place.

  8. Michelle, you’ll get it all figured it! And I, for one, can’t wait to hear more about t-ball :)

    • It’s funny Louise, because you know I’m not a sports person, so this t-ball thing is crazy. There’s definitely a post in the works about it. But I have to admit, I LOVE watching him play, way more than I thought I would.

  9. you don’t have to promise anything. once you’re settled, it will all fall into place again. new is not easy.. soon i think you’ll find your groove again. :)

  10. Kianwi says:

    I can’t imagine blogging when working full time and having a family! Add the change of a job, and I can get why you are having trouble finding time! I hope things sort themselves out for you, soon, because not only do we enjoy your blog, but I know it’s a source of creativity for you.

    • For a while I harbored notions of blogging daily. Even without the job change, that wasn’t possible. Some days I’m on the go 14 hours before I get even a moment to sit down and by that time the last thing I want to do is think. I miss it when I can’t write though, so I know I’ll figure out how to make the time.

      Thanks enjoying the blog!

  11. You described dealing with change to a “t”, well for me at least!

  12. Honestly, that 8 hours is a HUGE window! That’s a lifeline for me! Also, there is the brain drain of having to learn the “new” at a new company. Good luck with your new job and with finding your new balance (as if balance actually exists – right??)

  13. Switching jobs is so, so hard. When I moved over to the job I had now, it took me about 2 months to settle in to my “new normal” and to figure out when to do all the things that I felt like I had so much time for in my other job. I have been here for almost two years now, it now my new normal just feels normal. It will for you too in a little while. Promise.

    • I wish there was a way to speed up the process, but I doubt there is! I do feel like it’s getting better, slowly but surely. I’m an instant gratification kind of girl. I want what I want now. I hate waiting.

  14. Stacie says:

    I hate starting new jobs too! I’ve barely been blogging or reading. Spring is so rough with two kids playing baseball. I have no time and I don’t have a job!

    • That’s the other thing that is messing with my schedule. Nathan has t-ball on Saturdays now and it used to be that we wouldn’t have anywhere to be until the afternoon, if at all. I am so glad it’s spring, but between getting the yard ready for summer/spring, T-ball, and what seems like a birthday party every weekend, I’m really running out of time here!

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